ohkayy well some of you may ask why and thats pretty much simple.
There's this guy.
I've known him all my life.
I have always had a thing for him.
But whenever i forget bout that "little thing" I have for him, he manages to remind me and make me fall in love with him all over again.
Now, you may be asking "how is that confusing? If he's enticing you, flirting with you then just go for it!"
WELL my dear friends its not that simple. We have tried getting together, for 3 yrs actually and iit all ended up in chaos and now we're just mending its just hard to try and start something that i dont even know that he wants to start. atm i guess i'll just have to see where it goes but you still might be asking whyy is this confusing...
the confusing part is this:
He is my past, he was the person who I loved in my past and when i moved onto the future he is never there. So It shows that we were never ment for the future.
And thats why its all confusing is because that I dont wanna look in the past, i wanna keep moving and go towards the future.
The thing is the past, thats where I thought about us being a family, raising kids and having a good heck of a time to do so with loads of money that my kids wont have to suffer what I have gone through with not being able to get what I want.
hmm... guess i just need to vent even though i still dont know where its all going!!
venting and confused,
lil miss anonymous
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